Better. . .

Sorry, that was a really depressing post!  Just one of those days.  The rest of the evening got better.  I called my sister and mom and talked with them for a bit to cheer up and that helped a lot.  It turns out Bonita doesn’t have a fracture in her skull.  She just hit her head and has a cut.  I went to pick her up about 8:30 but couldn’t reach her on her cell phone so I was giving her a little more time while I spoke with my mom.  Dale ended up calling me to let me know that they were keeping her overnight for observation because even though the cat scans didn’t show anything she had a fever.  She was totally out of it when she spoke with Dale and the next morning she still had no idea what was going on.  She didn’t even know why she was in the hospital.  It turns out she has another infection.  They think its in the port so she’ll be in there probably until Saturday while they determine if the antibiotics are working.  If they aren’t they may have to change the port which would be a real pain.  Her g-tube also came out so they are putting that back in for her as well.  I feel really bad for her but it is kinda nice to have just the three of us at times.  Hopefully she’ll be out soon though.

I also went over our budget for the next while.  It turns out that even though things are tight if we can just get through the next few months I think we’ll be doing fine.  I was hoping to have everything paid by the end of the year but I think I’m going to have to drag it out to January.  Growing experiences, right!

So things are okay.  It was just one of the downer days.

The Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day

How bad can days get.  Try this one:

Baby decided to wake up early which made me later getting out of the house than I wanted because I was trying to get her back to sleep for my husband.  Eventually I gave up, didn’t get lunch made or some of my usual things I like to do before I leave.

Traffic was horrible.  I was taking Bonita to the hospital for chemo and it took us about two hours for what usually takes us only one.  They had chided her for being late in the past so I thought I had allowed plenty of time but because of the much heavier than usual traffic and my getting all turned around she was late again.

Bonita got out of the car, got into the back seat to get her purse.  As she closed the door I noticed a cab pull up close behind me and since I was close to a bus in front of me I was looking at the two of them for a few minutes trying to decide if I had enough room to get out.  I eventually looked back to see where Bonita was and when I didn’t see her I assumed she was walking toward the door and had walked far enough forward that the bus blocked my view, so I proceeded to work my way out of the spot backing forward and back until I was out and then went to work.  Hmmmm. . . no, she hadn’t walked forward.  She had fallen on the sidewalk where I couldn’t see her and now she has a hairline fracture in her skull and I’m a complete jerk and drive off never seeing her.  Thank goodness I didn’t run over her.  After a morning in the ER I get a call from Dale telling me what happened and asking me to go check on her.  I do, and she’s fine, her head just hurts a little but now the already long chemo day is now incredibly long since it includes an ER visit.  (At least they couldn’t get mad at her for being late and she picked a great place to crack her skull since she was right near the emergency room.)

Meanwhile, I review our finances, again, and find that once again we are in a stupid pinch.  I have no idea how we are going to have enough gas, and bus money to make it to the next paycheck.  We just keep getting extra bills so there’s no way of getting caught up.  I looked online for any sort of help for the middle class not really expecting to find anything.  I do find some discouraging news articles about how all of the middle class are going through this.  Basically all of them are running up credit card debt to pay basic necessities and none of them can afford any savings, retirement funding, education savings or anything and most have both parents working in order to meet these basic needs.  So, it doesn’t look like we’re such an oddity which is good, but discouraging.  I have an interview on thursday to do gift wrapping for the holidays for Macys for extra income.  Maybe that will help.  I’d rather be with my daughter.

I’m hungry most of the day since I’m lacking lunch foods.  Partly because of my lack of preparation but hunger doesn’t make a day any better.

I have my ballot all filled out but realized I forgot the stamps and have no way of buying postage here, hence no way of voting.  I was going to drop it off on my way home since we should have been done in plenty of time but because of the ER visit I will not longer be able to do so.

My husband calls me again to let me know that he is at his wits end.  The baby is screaming and has been for the last forty minutes so he’s left her upstairs because he can’t handle it anymore.  The dresser he bought his mom and painted for her birthday he tried to move to her room but when he got it to the top of the stairs it broke in half.  He didn’t have stamps for his ballot either so he was going to drop it off with me when I got home so he now has no way of voting either.

I’m stuck at work until Bonita gets out of the hospital at around 8:30 – 9.  I really don’t feel like working.  I feel like hiding under a rock.

I still have to drive all the way home and as depressed as I am I really don’t want to.

When I get home I want to make some comfort food, like some skillet apple pie that I saw a receipe for, but we can’t afford any of the ingredients for anything I want to make.  I think I’ll just go to bed.

Trunk or Treat

Lottie’s 1st Trunk or Treat!  She was a cute little pumpkin, I’m a scarecrow.  Dale was injured.  He hit his foot on our bassinet in the living room on Friday and we think he broke a toe or something because he’s in a lot of pain and its really swollen so we’re heading to the doctor’s on Monday for that.  Dale was so determined to see Lottie’s first trunk or treat that he braved the pain and came with us.  What a great dad!

I think the pumpkin is hilarious!

I also gave Lottie cereal for the first time today.  I was going to wait until the recommended six months to reduce the risk of allergies but she’s been eating a lot more lately and I don’t think its a growth spurt.  She’s been waking up a lot at night to eat and since one of the signs that they are ready for solids is if the milk doesn’t seem to be filling them up I decided to try it.  She LOVED the cereal and couldn’t get enough. 

Chubby faced Lottie!!

Hannah

So due to the wonderful generosity of my family I was able to go to my niece’s baby blessing a week and a half ago.  It was great!  We got to see Michelle play an awesome game of soccer, Lottie was excellent in the car drive over, Hannah was a complete darling, the food (of course, its my mom cooking!) was excellent, and it was great seeing everyone.  I love family get togethers.  It was weird holding a newborn again.  It’s like Bill Cosby says, they come out floppy and your wondering why you got a broken one.    Speaking of which, my sister Wendy was hilarious!  She’s used to having Ahanna, a one year old, so when she was holding Lottie she kept letter her fall forward when she was distracted forgetting that she can’t hold herself up.  So Lottie would be making all these grunting noises since she’s getting squished.  My sister would just be thinking she was reaching for something.  It was really funny to watch and it was only for a few second before my sister would catch it. 

Me in all of my wonderful brilliance forgot my camera so I had to rely on the helpfulness of others for these photos.  Thanks all!

Hannah is darling!

You can see how close Lottie and Hannah are in height even though Lottie is  about 3 months older!

Hannah is just cuter in this picture.   I love her little cheeks!

The three cuties!

Reviews

      

So we got Leatherheads and The Happening to watch last weekend.  I know, I know, The Happening is rated R, but it was a Shyamalan film and I loved his other ones.  I’ve seen a few R rated movies in the past and have always wished I hadn’t and this was no exception.  Don’t worry, you aren’t missing anything by not watching this.  All it is is a bunch of people committing suicide for the whole movie.  I spent most of it with my eyes closed.  There’s also not much mystery to figure out since it’s pretty much given to you at the beginning unlike his other films and it’s a political flick about ruining the environment.  Dale and I were highly disappointed.  It did have one cough syrup monologue which was pretty amusing otherwise it was a bore.

Leatherheads on the other hand was hilarious!  I let Dale get it thinking it was a dumb guy flick that I would suffer through.  It was so good we had to watch it twice to pick up on the jokes we missed because we were laughing.  Definitely rent this!  Dale especially thinks dad would get a kick out of it.

Myspace Address

For those interested my myspace link is www.myspace.com/pandapopple for more pictures, videos, etc.

Pumpkin Patch

So we decided to actally do the pumpkin patch thing this year since we have Lottie.  It was fun.  To save money we didn’t actually get a pumpkin, instead we did the corn maze, pet baby animals, viewed cool displays, got hot drinks, visited the store, bought fresh corn and a mini pumpkin for Lottie.  The store was full of Gooseberry Patch items, my mom would have been in heaven!

Out of the car and read to go.

Some of the fun displays.

Petting baby animals.

Lottie decided it was a perfect place for a nap.

Dale all geared up as we started the maze.

The maze had two rooms you were suppose to find, and then a harder way to go which contained a “Secret Room”.  This is the second of the two rooms.

A few feet into the harder path the “secret room” was discovered.  Is this the secret room?

Must be.  I thought this was suppse to be hard?  Guess we’re just really good.  We then wandered around just for fun.

Us trying to take a group shot at the “secret Room”.

In other news. . .

Bonita started chemo again yesterday.  She’s feeling it today but doing alright.  It’s kinda the same old, same old.  Still loosing weight. . . and now dealing with swelling.

Dale is now the Constable in Fiddler on the Roof for the Driftwood theatre.  Should be fun, but its a bit part.  He’s doing gardening right now, which, of course, he loves.  Moving everything in for the winter.

My sister’s baby is being blessed this weekend and we don’t get to go.  .  We can’t afford the gas and there’s no room to carpool.  At least we get to see them next month though. 

4 Months Old

Lottie turned four months old yesterday.

Some tidbits:

Weight at last Dr. Visit: 11 lbs 11 oz

Length at last Dr. Visit: 23″

Motor skills: getting better at grabbing, sits with help, stands with balancing help.

Favorite color: Blue

Favorite Food: Breast Milk

Favorite Book: Tails

Favorite Animal: elephants

Favorite Music Genres: Bluegrass and Dance Music (House)

Favorite Activity: Drooling

Chillin

Future Cowgirl?

She loves Elephants!

Family photo

The Bomb Exploded

After nine days the poo finally flowed. . . and it flowed everywhere.  It took two people to hose her down.

New Job

So, I’ve changed jobs.  Whew. . .  I hate decisions like that.  I’m actually going back to work for the Mauzeralle’s which is where I orginally got a job out in Seattle at.  They’ve matched my salary and benefits plus we are only working four 8.5 hour days through the end of the year.